Narrow Stairs:

Death Cab's new album, and the official soundtrack to this summer!

A Poem for Today, Day of All Days

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and of love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
-EE CUMMINGS

This can't be right...

Wait, you're telling me I'm done?
I'm finished.
No more studying.
Even if I felt like being proactive and studious, nothing left to study?
No more homework?
No more IAs?
Extended Essays?
I don't have to have panic attacks this summer about said essays?
No more HL biology?
I can read what I want?
I can play freaking GUITAR HERO?
I seriously have time to play Guitar Hero???
In seven days, no more Cat??
I am actually, honest to God, truly and really
FINISHED WITH IB?????


Jeez, I'm going to miss it. Masochist?

A 15, because I have been regressing today.

1. You are the only one who I could watch Blue's Clues with that would answer all the questions wrong with me. Love!
2. You know what, you are actually pretty hot. and charming! Why does it seem like you are so out of my league?
3. God, I Fucking HATE you so much! I seriously don't get why it is me that you are bitching about! I don't even -do- anything to you! I'm much meaner to your 'bestie.' Why don't I have the balls to bitch you out?
4. It was kind of a relief. Ever since it got brought up, I was afraid I would suddenly be jealous, but no such bad luck, it turns out I actually -am- qualified to identify the inner workings of my mind!
5. Man, you are an asshole. That adorable Iron Giant had to get dead acause a you!
6. I don't trust you anymore, because the first emotion I feel anytime I think of a friend should not be betrayal.
7. I have been acting weird towards you. I'm sorry. It'll go away once I'm free from IB shackles!
8. Where'd you go?
9. You made me cry Tuesday morning.
10. It's sad, but this will keep it from becoming all the previous breaks all over again. Now its crunch time.
11. I don't mean to mock you, but she and I are right, you have changed a ton and a half in a weird way. Also, I hate each one of your new friends.
12. I WILL have sex with you by the end of the summer, dammit.
13. You aren't my enemy. You couldn't be if you tried (which you kinda did.) Keep up with this, and we may have a real friendship on our hands. We haven't ever had that before.
14. It totally was your fault, even if it was a little bit mine, you still should've known better!! goof!
15. You were here and gone so fast, and with the timing, if I hadn't found out I never would've noticed. I hate this. I hate that I believe it now. But for some reason, I don't hate you. Should I? I really don't know.

A Haiku

IB is tricky
not the history exam
but I fear Bio.

To Put it as Simply as I Can:

I wish this hadn't happened to Jon.

Things Are Looking Up!

These last few weeks had been a little, well, shaky. Everyone, (me especially) had been cranky and stressed as a general rule, and I was really having a hard time staying motivated for my exams next week. But the last week has definitely been one of the best I can remember of high school.

- Prom - everything I dreamed it could be! Looking great, being with my friends, sunrise, breakfast, all of it was fantastic.
- My friends are happy - I'm really excited for Blair and Laura, she is much with the nice and pretty, and Emma finally has the boyfriend she deserves.
- My history award - I know this sounds cheesy, but I really was very honored to get it. I seriously felt like I was about to cry when Ms. Tucker was talking about it, but luckily I realized the gayness rating of that would far exceed legal limits. So I smiled and took my award (and presents! I was the only one to get presents! Three really awesome sounding books!) I know this whole speil sounds pretentious, but I've worked really hard in that class for the last two years, and I really am very passionate about it, and having the people you are working for recognize that... well, it's neat.
- Exams - that award really gave me the kick in the butt I needed to become super-motivated to do well next week! Here's to 7's in English and History! Here's to passing math and bio! Spanish.... uh, Spanish!

I'm ready!

Weekly Resolutions 4/28

1. Memorize 1812 (more)
2. Make new bank account
3. Make at least 3 graduation presents

Weekly Resolutions 4/7

This week:
1. Make an appointment with the *DU Honors* chair and finish the application.
2. Do ab *workouts* and/or run
3. Finish *_Rant_* by Chuck Palahniuk. I'm not crazy for it, kind of plotless, but I feel the need to finish.

The very worst thing about a breakup is

you don't just stop loving the person, you just stop seeing them. Right now it feels more like we just haven't been able to see each other in two weeks, less like he really just isn't a part of my life anymore.
...
Fuck this shit.

I never ever wouldve imagined

That I wouldn't even -speak- to Ian on my 18th birthday.

Things I Love Thursday!

This one is easy, because today is my….
drumroll…
18th BIRTHDAY!!!

SO rock.

I love:
-The flowers Kelsey got me, Pink lily like things!
-My new purse from Emma, totally perfect for this summer
-French Toast with my 2 BFFs
-Chinese with Blur
-Looking GORGEOUS today and getting all sorts of compliments and "happy birthday"s.
-Being forever done with CAS hours!
-anticipation for my family dinner tonight (and presents lol yay!)

Weekly Resolutions 3/31/08

1. Finish CAS
2. Look fabulous on my birthday
3. Finish my playlist for the party

Things I Love Thursday, 3/27

I am currently on Spring Break in Southern California, which is TOTALLY my happy place, so I love a lot this week!

1. The Beach. Being from Colorado, I couldn’t possibly be further from a beach, so today was the second time ive ever seen the ocean (thefirst being when I was 10) and it was a really beautiful experience for me. i need to get a beach imported to Denver!

2. My new A-line haircut! So cute I can’t wait to surprise everyone with it!

3. Fashion Island, the most gorgeous and incredible mall ive ever been to. It’s in Newport beach, ‘The OC’ territory. Coming from it is my EXTREMELY fashion forward new outfit from Urban outfitters which I love as well!

4. Disneyland rides. They are so extravagant and detailed it blows my mind! Nods go to Indiana Jones, Pirates of the Carribean, and their amazing new Finding Nemo Submarine ride. And the fireworks and water projection shows nearly made me weep in delight!

5. Getting rejected from Claremont McKenna College, my first choice school. This sounds peculiar I know, but I think it is the universe speaking to me and putting me where I really belong. Going to Claremont McKenna would mean moving to Cali, and DU keeps me close to my amazing support system of friends and family I love so much. Plus, I love Denver itself! I could never leave it!

Honorable Mention: Pistachios. I tried them for the first time my first day in Cali, and they are officially my new favorite snack!

Weekly Resolutions: Spring Break Edition

Spring break California vacation edition!

1. Continue to drink 3+ giant water bottles a day.
2. Never (within reason) say no when the kiddies Adam and Katie want to play.
3. Take a picture of a really sick shark and a bamf whale at sea world.

1, 2, 3, 4. [Is there a song that I hate more? >_<]

31.5 Approximate number of hours of Spanish class left
173 Number of words in my poetry essay. I need about 827 more.
96 Theoretical number of minutes I've been 'working on it.'
8 Number on a scale of 1-10 that I would rate my current headache.
0 Amount of patience I seemed to have had on my traditional 'Wednes-date' today.
5 Number of pounds I have gained this week.
10 Size of my prom dress.
14 Size I am going to need at this rate.
70 Score I got on the history DBQ. I thought that was supposed to be the class I was good at?
62 Percent of tuition offered to me in merit scholarships at my
3 rd choice school.
16 Percent odds that I will be accepted to my first choice school.
67 Number of days until I graduate
0 amount of certainty I feel about any day after that.

Weekly Resolutions 3/16/08

1. Finish Molly's mix CDs - a 6 disc volume of getting her into listening to indie, plus mini-biographies on the 30 bands. lol i = music geek!

2. Do nice things for my sister every day. She is in her school's production of Les Miserables, so she'll be at school till 11 every night, not to mention stressed. I remember the feeling. She could definitely enjoy her room being spontaneously cleaned or a magical breakfast to go, i think.

3. Take pictures of my gorgeous new outfits for my 100 in 1001 blog (thesummerintodust.blogspot.com) to work on #22.

4. Finish 3 calculus worksheets. (Left over from last week, bad Kayla!)

5. Start a new book, either Dan Brown or ...Gossip Girl.

101 in 1001.

my new blog.

thesummerintodust.blogspot.com

Sleazy Mutant Romance!

Sir Lancelot gazed fondly into the soft blue pools of Lady Guineviere's eyes and gently held her mutant third hand. Wait, what?

http://photoshopdisasters.blogspot.com/

Things I Love Thursday! 3/13

1. I got into Denver University (2nd choice) and University of Puget Sound (3rd choice) yesterday, and I only need to wait two more weeks before I hear from Claremont McKenna . I got 50% merit scholarship at UPS too!

2. I unearthed my old gameboy and played pokemon yellow for the first time in ten years. I adore 8 year old regression time!

3. My 101 in 1001 list I'm about to cross off two by the end of the week!

4. CSAP week.

5. Planning my Senior pictures outfits! I'll post again when they've been taken.