Quote of Whenever I Feel Like It

"No, if I was REALLY a whore from hell, I could lick my own boob. From here."
-Amanda

TEH BLINK of the 182s!

Didja hear???

Blink-182 is coming out with a greatest hits CD on November 1st!

It's dumb to buy Greateast Hits CD's, you say?

Well, It's got THREE (3) previously unheard tracks! That like ten minutes of Blink I have not experienced! Plus, check out the Tres Coolness of this CD!

1. Carousel
2. M&Ms
3. Dammit
4. Josie
5. What's My Age Again
6. All the Small Things
7. Adam's Song
8. Man Overboard
9. Rock Show
10. First Date
11. Stay Together for the Kids
12. Feelin' This
13. Miss You
14. Down
15. Not Now
16. Always
17. Another Girl Another Planet

Wow, a supa great CD!, you now say! I DEFINETLY want to pay just $13.90 to have such an amazing collection of Blinkyness!

Told you I was right. To celebrate, here are lyrics from all these great songs!

I talk to you every now and then I never felt so alone again I stop to think at a wishing well My thoughts send me on a carousel ** You and I should get away for awhile I just want to be alone with your smile Buy some candy and cigarettes and we'll get in my car We'll blast the stereo and we'll drive to Madagascar ** And it's happened once again, I'll turn to a friend Someone that understands, sees through the master plan But everybody's gone and I've been here for too long To face this on my own, well I guess this is growing up ** And when I feel like giving up Like my world is falling down I show up at 3am She's still up watching Vacation And I see her pretty face It takes me away to a better place and I know everything's gonna be fine I know everything's gonna be fine ** And thats about the time she walked away from me Nobody likes you when you're 23 And you still act like you're in freshman year What the hell is wrong with me, my friends say I should act my age What's my age again? What's my age again? ** Say it ain't so, I will not go Turn the lights off, carry me home Keep your head still, I'll be your thrill The night will go on, my little windmill ** I never conquered, rarely came 16 just held such better days Days when I still felt alive We couldn't wait to get outside ** You can only lean on me for so long Bring your ship about to watch a friend drown Stood up on the ledge Begged you to come down You can only lean on me for so long **I fell in love with the girl at the rock show She said "what?" and I told her that I didn't know She's so cool, better sneak in through her window Everything's better when she's around Can't wait until her parents go out of town I fell in love with the girl at the rock show** In the car I just can't wait to pick you up on our very first date Is it cool if I hold your hand? Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance? Do you like my stupid hair? Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear? I'm too scared of what you think You make me nervous so I really can't eat ** So here's your holiday hope you enjoy it this time you gave it all away It was mine So when your dead and gone Will you remember this night Twenty years now lost It's not right ** Fate fell short this time Your smile fades in the summer Place your hand in mine I’ll leave when I wanna ** Hello there, the angel from my nightmare The shadow in the background of the morgue The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley We can live like Jack and Sally if we want Where you can always find me We'll have Halloween on Christmas And in the night we'll wish this never ends We'll wish this never ends ** The drops of rain they fall all over This awkward silence makes me crazy The glow inside burns light upon her I'll try to kiss you if you let me Tidal waves they rip right through me Tears from eyes worn cold and sad Pick me up now, I need you so bad ** So here I am I'm trying So here I am are you ready Come on let me hold you, touch you, feel you Always Kiss you, taste you all night Always

I HEART BLINK

Subterranean Sick of Home Blues

Listening to Radiohead - Subterranean Homesick Alien, in particular. This song's title, as a matter of fact, is strikingly similar to Bob Dylan's Subterranean Homesick Blues, a great song. Both are great. But do you actually know what a subterranean is? Ever heard of a beatnik? Well, beats are what they liked to be called and subterraneans are what they called themselves. To summarize the whole idea, beats (subterraneans) were these people in the '50's who, unlike the Leave it to Beaver, consumerist monkeys in mainstream America, questioned things, wrote, travelled as nomads... got in to the grit and had a real life, ya know? You may have heard of Jack Kerouac, Allen Ginsberg... These were the guys that started all this buisness, I recommend HIGHLY On the Road by Kerouac or "Howl" by Ginsberg, if you are interested. Amazing, they be.

So what got me started thinking about all this is one simple state of being -
Boredom.
I mean all of us get bored. Nothing on TV, tired of the internet, none of your friends home to talk to... but I'm not talking 'go read a book' bored. I'm talking, I've been out of my mind bored for a good few weeks now, bored. I'm just tired of doing everything. Anything that formerly made me happy has been... boring me, for lack of a better word. Even my friends that I love with my whole head and select toes aren't making me snap out of it... Just the monotony of my life, it's crushing. Wake up, go to school, come home, do homework, be online, go to bed... over and over and over and over and over again, until I just want to scream... but no one would notice because they are all stuck in their monotony just like I am, some don't even notice... The last exciting thing I remember doing is breaking in to that scary barn behind the cafeteria with Didi and Jacob and Rafael - about 5 months ago. That was the last time I had any kind of... zest, at the risk of sounding dumb. I am a 15 year old girl with very observant parents and no form of income or transportation that I don't rely entirely on someone else for. Even if I WANTED to do something... I don't know, spontaneous... I couldn't. And say, say I could fend for myself and do something like that... who would come with me? No one. They are all just as hopeless and dependent as I hate myself for being. At homecoming, Kaela Zihlman wanted people to come with her to do something spontaneous... and I wanted to so so bad... but nonono, mommy will be here in twenty minutes to come take you to your nice safe reliable home... Dammit I'm just so frustrated. All of this, lack of substance in my life is leaving me entirely unfufilled and feeling ignored and I can't really do a thing to change it. Like I said before, I love my friends like family. But I don't have anyone that, if I couldn't be found, that it would make any difference for them to just go find another friend for the same purpose. Everyone I know seems to have someone that really trusts them, that they can help, or can be helped by... a boyfriend, a really close best friend... hell just someone to talk to. I'm probably wrong anyway. I doubt anyone, probably not even I, could think of someone else selflessly, help them without thought of whats in it for them...and the fact that we talk and talk and wake up and go to school and waste away online (like - hey- I'm doing right now) without getting anything really accomplished just adds to this deafening dullness...
this boredom.
but what do I know, anyway?