If I can write two more essays tonight

then i just might get into this college.

5 down, 2 to go

I am SO ready to be done with IAs.

I'm really quite a wreck without.

I miss my cello.
I miss Alli.
I miss FRYS.
I miss Jake.
I miss my boyfriend.
I miss reading.
I miss Sam and Danielle.
I miss my sister.
I miss shopping.
I miss my past.
I miss writing.
I miss sleepovers.
I miss Aaron and Eli.
I miss clarity.
I miss Annie.
I miss TV.
I miss A's.
I miss fucking SLEEP.

So, assuming I can finish my IA tonight -
Can I have all that back please?

Um, Veteran's Day is a National -Holiday.-

So here I am.
Not at school.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

At Sweet Last

The Transpiration Lab of Doom and Destruction is FINISHED. CORRECTLY.

It nearly killed me. Good Lord.

who am i kidding?

I have completed this 6 page biology lab no less than four different times.
Each time, as I finish my last data table (The lab involves finding 28 averages, 196 standard deviations) I realize that I have either averaged or found the standard deviation of the wrong data.
Each time takes me an hour.

I have never felt so hopeless in my life. I wish I was exaggerating. I cannot forsee myself ever correctly completing this lab. It was due today... I've spent 5 hours redoing the data collection only. Let alone the graph I am bound to screw up royally another 4 times.

Why haven't I dropped out yet? This isn't fucking worth it.